Sometimes I just lose it! Yesterday was one of those days! I was out watering the garden and I kept telling myself there was not much water pressure. I kept watering the garden and the water stopped coming out of the hose and started spitting and spewing brown water out. I checked the hose, the faucet, and I was thinking maybe I had left the water running in the house. None of these things were to be the cause of no water. I turned off the water and went into the house and a slight trickle was coming out the faucet. I go outside to the well, talking and grumbling all the way. The well is making some kind of gurgling noise and I know I am in trouble. I start griping really loud about this time and hitting the well and anything around it hoping ants have stopped the flow of the electricity to the pump. Nothing happens! I look up to the sky and yell out at God, "How much more do you think I can handle"? I proceed to come into the house, call Neal and yell at him because he is never home when there is a crisis. Okay, I can hear all of y'all saying "Wow! She is really losing it." Well I felt like I was. After I hung up on Neal, I decided to go turn the power off to the well and then switch it back on, NOTHING! I sat down and started talking to God about it all. "Why God is this happening? I can't find a job, I have bills to pay, and now the well goes out and Neal is not home. Why do all these things keep happening?" NOTHING! I just sat there for a few minutes and I heard the words "You have to praise Him in the storm." So I went out to the well, I prayed over the well and the ground all around it and under it. I rebuked the devil and claimed that this land was my land that God had given me. I went back in the house and I sent text messages to several people asking them to pray. Still no water. I sat down and just put it out of my mind.
About 11:00 the dogs are going crazy outside so I look out the window and see my dog has something in its mouth. I beat on the window and he drops it. I am thinking it is my cat. I walk out there and discover it is a small opossum. I look at him and shew off the dogs. I get the shovel to put him in a bag and realize he is still alive. I finally put him on the rake, which I put on the car and I drive it down the road. All of the sudden the opossum jumps up and starts running around on the hood of my car. I am going really slow hoping he doesn't jump off. I finally get far enough from my house and right by the woods and I try to get him off the hood. He does not want to go! I pull him off, after he scratches the hood of my car and put him down and he takes off.
I come back home and just wonder what else I will need to deal with. I fill out an application for Spring ISD, which took forever, but felt good I had sent another one out. I waited for Britney to get home and told her about my evening. She thought it was funny but horrible. We both decided to head for bed and she asked if she could flush the toilet and I said no because it would not fill back up. I went upstairs put on my pajamas and forgot and flushed the toilet. It filled back up! I turned on the faucet and water was flowing strong. I checked the shower and it too had water and strong pressure. I went to bed thanking the Lord for bringing water back into my house.
I said all this to tell myself and you that there is always hope if we keep our focus on God. He will take us through the storm if we hold on to Him. All the yelling and getting mad did nothing but hurt me. I realize I still have a long way to go in this living for the Lord, but it is a process I want and need to keep working on.
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Selah. Psalm 46:1-3,7
Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7
God knows our hearts, whats deep inside us. I know that so many times I disappoint Him, but He is faithful to stay right by me. He never leaves me or forsakes me. What a Great God we serve. Yesterday was just another part to walking out my salvation. It truly is an everyday process. Salvation is everything. Without it we will not see Heaven. So I keep pressing toward the mark knowing every step I take down that path is a part of my salvation walk. God never fails us! He loves unconditionally! How awesome is that!
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